This is my first entry for today. I'm planning on posting another one later but I wanted to let everyone know how my weekend unfolded and what the week ahead looks like for your favorite diet blogger. I hope I'm your favorite. I'm not standing here naked in front of you for nothing, ya know.
I received some really great emails last week and over the weekend. Very supportive to say the least. I appreciate all the feedback, I truly do. Some days it makes the difference between getting off the treadmill after ten minutes because it's just no fun and sticking with it because I know people are rooting for me.
I also received some feedback which basically accused me of being an attention-seeking ass. That one was my favorite. There is nothing attention-seeking about my ass. I find it utterly ridiculous that anyone could think that posting a picture of myself, weighing 400 pounds, is something I actually want to receive attention for. I'm glad this blog is helpful or interesting to those of you who read it but I write here for myself. I posted those pictures for myself. I face the truth of this process...for myself. Owning this journey and all the ups and downs has been brutal for me.
Truthfully, this is the hardest thing I've ever tried to do. Last week when I was working out with Chris, I looked at him and said, "I don't know if I can do this. Really. I just don't know if I will ever make it to the goal." He ignored me and made me do more pull ups. Thank goodness for him. The trainers believe in me even when I falter and can't find it in me to believe in myself.
As for my weekend. I had a bug or a touch of food poisoning or something. It was a pretty unproductive three days although I did manage to go for a good walk on Saturday and got in 30 minutes of cardio yesterday. I'm sure I didn't drink enough water. The food thing was inconsistent on the days when I felt like eating but at least I didn't eat anything bad for me.
Ok, there was that cookie...
This week I'm getting ready for the big sweet 16 bash and working on some projects at the clinic. It feels like there won't be enough time to get it all done. Stress. I'll be surrounded by food all week. Temptation. I'm sure I'll look for every excuse not to do what I need to do so stay tuned.
More later after I work out.
Yep, haters come with blogging. Have a good work out.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you were sick this w/e, that is no fun.
ReplyDeleteYou don't worry about those ugly comments. You are right, why would you want attention like that. You just keep up the blogging because you are an inspiration to a lot of people. And if blogging helps you to keep focused on your goal, then just ignore the idiots. I think you are doing an amazing job and know you will make it to your goal.
Oh my gosh mom! You have your first HATER!!! YAY! Do you know what that means? It means you are in the BIG LEAGUES! I am so proud of you!
ReplyDeletePS Give me this persons name. I need to make a few phone calls and set some people straight....
*Growls and cracks knuckles.
I love you tons and I will do what ever I can to support you. I know my party is this week, but you need to put yourself first.
Thanks for being a great mom and role model!!
You do pull-ups?
ReplyDeleteI mean, I'm sorry there are attention seeking asses out there who are hating on you, Pamela, seriously, who really has the time on their hands to send hate mail to a (really freaking funny) blog about weight loss? Really? This is the issue that gets them to the keyboard? What a sad ass.
Back to pull-ups. I've been lifting weights for five flipping years and can't do a pull-up. I tried at the playground on Saturday and still no go. You do pull-ups? That rocks.
Come on. These are modified pull ups. Let's not get loopy here!
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